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not all girls want a huge package

2006-03-19 / 2:41 a.m.
i have reached a new level of lameness, but a level that i take a nerdly delight in:

i'm in love with a character in a book.

i'm sure all 4-5 of you who read this journal have had your respective book crushes. i have never really had one before, so i NOW know how all 4-5 of you feel.

his name: owen meany

now, i'm not done reading the book yet, so don't even THINK about fucking spoiling the end of it for me. i've done this with all the john irving books i've read. i go into a reading masturbatory blur, then hold off at the end because i just don't want to climax. i don't want to be dripping with mental cum and have to clean up the mess. i don't want to return to my life after the story is over.

i don't think i'll ever find another i character i adore more than ol' owen. i'm in love with HIS VOICE. i'm in love with how so much thought and passion comes out of such a tiny package-(get your minds outta da gutter!).

i said this in a journal entry before, this was the book andy had been reading before he died. vin told me that the book was actually andy's and that made me feel really bad because i accidentally ruined it. the book was kind of old to begin with and the cover has started to come off, but with the book being toted around in my book bag-(my home away from home)the tearing process was accelerated. so i mended it with medical tape from work. i feel that i've been irresponsible by not taking better care of the cover, and i'm somehow making andy upset with me, which is a silly thing to think about someone who is dead and gone and cannot come back to say something like: "you bitch, i'm never letting you borrow one of my books again!"

so he has been added to my never ending nerd-crush list. i've never posted the list before, probably should, but the list will have to wait for some other time. once posted, it will give nerds across the globe hope...hope because nerdness is something that should never be scoffed at, it is something to be adored and masturbated to.

but my love for owen, is SO SACRED that i can't imagine feeling THAT WAY about him.

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