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this entry might only make sense to me because, it's after 4am

2005-08-07 / 4:41 a.m.
i guess i should watch what i pray for. i've been bumped to another shift, and am now working with people who don't appear to resent me for doing my job. the kick in the nuts is this--i had one day off between rotations to rearrange my sleep schedule, and my ass is completely whipped.

so whipped in fact, i believe i have a cold. i spent all day in bed yesterday and ate nothing but ice cream. i wanted to be up doing stuff like cleaning the cluttery casa, but i needed to rest. i'ts after four a.m., and i've been up since three. i think i'll go back to sleep so i can do a few things this evening. when i go back to work on tuesday, i only have to work that day, then i have some holiday time to take off before the end of the year.

the other thing that's bugging me, is the old shift i was on wants me to come back to work on my day off to have a potluck dinner with them. i originally said i would but i don't want to. first of all, i don't want to go visit work on my day off, and secondly, there was only one person on that shift i really had a bond with. if i want to hang with her, we can just go out to lunch and i don't have to be around the other shitheads. i could go on about this more, but i'm tired, sick, and whiny. do any of you diary readers have those kinds of situations in your lives where you do something because you feel obligated to do so, but you don't want to? do you end up doing the social things just to keep peace, or do you decline?

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