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"NOT"

2005-05-18 / 7:45 p.m.
i picked a tick off of ladymutt that was the size of a very large garbanzo bean. i had nightmares about it. i pulled it off her like a mad scientist, put it on the counter, and tortured it to death. i did NOT know they could get so big. i figure vinnie and i must have missed that one while looking her over.

i have decided i do NOT want to teach in the public school system. i spent the weekend with my best fat friend nikie up in lafayette, and was able to get a sneak peak into the real life of a teacher. she's wore out...big time, and i came to the conclusion that the teaching in public school path is probably NOT appropriate for me. as nik said, there's just too much 'fiddling' one has to do. i'm NOT really good at ass kissing, or dealing with shitty parents.

the job i have now i love. it's been an exhausting rotation so far, but i enjoy teaching in a controlled environment, covering sensible subjects with the detainees in the juvenile facility. i miss my sex ed job sometimes, but more often than NOT, i'm happy to be gone--especially when it comes to the drive. 30 minutes and i'm there...vs. the 1.5-2 hour drive it used to be.

i think this is what i want to do: keep my 'job' and on my ample time off-(i work 4 days on, 4 days off year around), i want to develop my art. i want to get an actual client base, and who knows-- a few years down the road, i could feasibly make some money. i won't count on it, because art doesn't bring in the green unless you're dead, and that's NOT a guarantee.

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