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it's called "salad"

2005-03-16 / 6:37 p.m.
today marked day three of a headache i've had. nothing has worked. and like the other two days, i have come home, put the dog outside, and put a hot water bottle on my head.

it's finally gone, i think. just exhausting. today i taught my agencies sex-ed-(abstinence only version,YUCK)in a PUBLIC school for the first time. how exhausting! i saw i dunno, between 80-100 students. they behave much differently than the kids that are locked up, they are much, much wilder. what ever happened to corporal punishment? it was like pulling teeth to get the students to participate, and i did my very best at keeping the energy high and teaching class like i host a game show-(a trademark of mine that gets them learnin' like no one's bidnezz).

by the time the school day was over, my ass was whupped. public schools SUCK. no wonder teachers are so apathetic. makes me wonder why i'm getting into it. okay, i confess...i'll tell you why: the lunches. that's right, there's nothing that i want more than to earn a shitty salary and have the honor of eating grade z meat soaked in god knows what served over wilted iceburg lettuce and called 'salad'. how fucking disgusting. i hope it doesn't congeal in my intestinal tract.


and i only have two more days to go until i'm done with the company. the "bossholes"-(i don't miss you JT, but thanks for the vocab word) wanna take me out for lunch on friday. my imagination has gone into overdrive, and i've wondered if they are gonna whack me a-la joe pesci style in "CASINO". i hope not.

then the new adventure starts. being an officer in a detention facility will be somewhat of a change, but it is so much closer to my house, and the employment isn't grant funded, and a little more secure. i hate going through the anxiety of applying for grants and not knowing if i'm gonna have a job the next year.

other good news: i passed the reading and math portions of my PRAXIS exam. i don't know how i did on the writing part, i'm supposed to get those results via snail mail any day now. i'm not sure how i did, i think i bombed. writing is my strongest suit, i just don't do well in timed situations. if i don't pass, i won't be resentful about taking that specific part of the test over again. i DO of course, thing standardized tests are complete bullshit, but unfortunately, i gots to do what i gots to do to be a teacher. i'll get there sooner or later.

i'm gonna work out and take a really hot bath afterwards. i remember there was a time in life where i would have chosen to do ANYTHING but exercise. i love working out.

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